Transformation Proclamation

On May 21st of this year I made a sort of "transformation proclamation." I vowed to myself--and to friends--that from there on out, I would hold myself accountable for the person I am and strive to become the person I hope to be...the person I am meant to be. Alas, over a month later I haven't made a whole lot of progress. It's a difficult thing to do, transform, when your life needs improvements in every which way...

I've mainly been focusing on developing a career in order to become a financially stable and independent young woman. Unfortunately, I haven't received the response from employers that I hoped for and there just haven't been opportunities that I qualify for... It's entirely frustrating to feel inadequate when I know that I am intelligent, I am capable, I am someone of worth who has much to offer. But how do I get that to translate? That is the question and that is what I continue to work on so that one day soon, I can work.

Another area which I am hoping to improve in is that of my own personal health. I have been trying to eat healthier and have had some success, with the occasional setback. But I have been running and, for me, that is a huge accomplishment. Trust me, I'm not a natural born runner. However, I've actually surprised myself because I am kind of liking running. I like using my body because I want to take advantage of my physical abilities while they last and I want to become healthier. Plus, I really do love feeling the "good aches" because it means that I've found--and used--muscles I have neglected.

Finally a point of emphasis has been growing in my faith. I think it is very important to come know God because through Him, I'll come to know myself. He provides for me everyday and has blessed me in so many ways. I want nothing more than to bring glory to His name with my life--indeed, that is the reason behind my transformation. Even if I had some hot shot job, loads of cash, the nicest clothes, a sweet ride, a MTV Crib worthy home, yadda, yadda, yadda... Even if I had all of that, it would mean nothing without God. God brings meaning and purpose to my life.

So with that thought, I continue to pursue the "better me." Progress takes time and transformation is a daily task, but the reward is sooo worth it. The reward is a life truly lived, a life that will have mattered, and a life that leads to God.

"Don't you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit,
who lives in you and who was given to you by God?
You do not belong to yourselves but to God;
he bought you for a price.
So use your bodies for God's glory."
-1 Corinthians 6:19-20-

"The only accurate way to understand ourselves
is by what God is and by what he does for us."
-Romans 12:3-

"A life devoted to things is a dead life, a stump;
a God shaped life is a flourishing tree."
-Proverbs 11:28-

"Do not conform yourselves to the standards of this world,
but let God transform you inwardly
by a complete change of your mind.
Then you will be able to know the will of God--
what is good and what is pleasing to Him and what is perfect."
-Romans 12:2-